I am so let down. I lived for 5 years in Saudi Arabia with my Dad’s work for the American Govt. We had several Filipino families who were OFW and they were great to us. Last year around July I was so burned out over my school and working two jobs I broke down. I am an ex-alcoholic who decided to go back to school and I have worked hard for my IT degree. I fell back into drinking then and I had a breakdown. I started thinking about the Filipino people I knew ” Nice family”, and wanted this sort of a wife.
I am 39 now and never married. I am handsome 5’8″ tall. Not a big American. I met a woman who was 29 at the time. She was more interesting than the other girls. They ranged from 18 to about her age. we became serious and decided to date each other exclusively. So I had to get off the site. I decativated my account on Christian Filipina and was totally honest. I sent her flowers for Her Birthday in September, Christmas and for Valentines day. She was moody a bit short with me and I thought it had to do with bad past relationships. I finally decided in May of 2014 that I would travel to see her in Manila and we would go to Borocay then her province to meet the family. I showed up at 1:30 am after a 24 hour flight with layovers to Manila. It was the worst Airport I have seen.
I knew her for 8 months on the Website Christian Filipina before we made the trip. The trip seemed good. I am thinking we are both in love. When I get back I am totally screwed with school. I shouldn’t have taken the trip I am kicked out…. one semester left to graduate and I have no money… I lose one of my jobs so my budget is screwed. She seems to not care. Well in September she is being wierd. Starts messing with me… Says ” I love you… even if you have no Dick.” Then hangs up on skype. I am just scratching my head.
Then she and her best friend come online skype and She says ” You have small dick! lolool.ol.” I am not a big guy, but I am not a shrimp. This is their idea of white guys and her ex was 6′ 8″ Black American. So we had a fight. She God upset with me because she loved me deeply, but I “hated” her. I almost burned down my Aparment and ended up in the burn unit after we had our fight. She didn’t call me because we were “Seperated” for a while. No empathy. So Finally she contacts me again and I make her write a letter. It is sweet and shows she has a brain, but then She is always watching videos when she talks to me… Turns out they are hardcore porn vids. Funny videos she says. So now I get her attitude. I am pissed off because she asked me if I am A born Again Christian before she insulted me. Seems a bit evil. Then my friend commited suicide in November and she said nothing. I think I may not have love here.